I think its a good idea to honor and embrace the archetype of the witch. Do your ritual and ride the broom to the witches sabbath and be with all other witches past and present in the sabbath. Celebrate the witch, sexy, dirty, ugly and powerful, reviled, feared and admired. Own it and love it and dance it.
When I shall have departed from this world,
Whenever ye have need of anything,
Once in the month, and when the moon is full,
Ye shall assemble in some desert place,
Or in a forest all together join
To adore the potent spirit of your queen,
My mother, great Diana. She who fain
Would learn all sorcery yet has not won
Its deepest secrets, them my mother will
Teach her, in truth all things as yet unknown.
And ye shall all be freed from slavery,
And so ye shall be free in everything; p. 6
And as the sign that ye are truly free,
Ye shall be naked in your rites, both men
And women also: this shall last until
The last of your oppressors shall be dead;
And ye shall make the game of Benevento,
Extinguishing the lights, and after that
Shall hold your supper thus:
This is the full moon ritual from Gospel of Aradia. Its a useful place to get started planning your rites. Don’t worry that it calls for you to meet with other people, you can do most of the ritual and then fall asleep planning to meet the others in your sleep and complete the rest. Also if there aren’t fireflies where you live, you can instead contemplate them and their magic—since that is the stated point of the ritual.